Life has had a such a turn of events lately. I am dating my best friend's son. I have known him quite a few years and it certainly is an adventure. But sometimes I am not really sure if being in a relationship is right for me. Am I ready? Why are all the old worries coming back? I do believe I have unresolved "issues". Ashley loves to practice her psychotherapy on me. She's so funny.
The biggest worry I have right now is a family we are close to. They have 6 kids and the father is pretty abusive. The mother is planning a divorce, but if he finds out, he could hurt her and the kids. So I offered my home so she and the kids would have a place to stay if needed. I think she is afraid to leave, but it is getting really bad. She has no money. Actually she has nothing at all but the clothes on her back. For the last year the oldest daughter has had bags packed in her car for all the kids for when they have to run, which is often. What a way to live. So I just keep them in my prayers. I try to help when asked. I have found an apartment for them based on income, about $5 a month. Then we would have to gather household items. But mostly I worry about her...I know that horrible feeling in your stomach. The heartache. The worries. Not being able to think straight. I told her I am first praying fo reconciliation, but also for God's comfort and peace. The fear she lives in day to day makes me sick. I can't imagine. I am so thankful Pat never raised a hand to me.
Ashley is getting her voice back, stronger each day. She is trying to make sense of all the college stuff and where to go, how to do it, what needs to be done. She is considering a community college to start with because the expenses would be less for her basic classes. Or possibly getting those basics done online, and maybe challenging a few of the courses so she won't have to take them. Her world is stressful now. I need to sit down with her and go over it step by step. I have a graduation meeting today. We still have not set a date. So much to do!
It's fun to see each day what God has. So many amusing days. So many things to learn. yes, life is an adventure.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
