Amazing how one moment

Can change everything you believed and held secure.  Just when you think you know someone it can change so suddenly.  Things you had no idea about come to the surface and it conks you over the head like a crow bar.  And then the insecurities come in.  The weakness.  Uncertainty.  Anger.  Betrayed trust. I did not deserve this.  I was blindsided.  Now I have to figure out a way to peel myself up from the floor and get through it.  Life is so hard sometimes.  So I am crawling into my daddy God's lap. 

Things that make me happy....

 I am thinking of things that make me happy.  Sometimes it is the little things in life.  Like butterflies.  I love butterflies.  I am fortunate to see a couple each day.  They just twitter close then twitter away.  I wish one would stay still for like 15 minutes until I get a photograph.  Every time I see one I think of the movie "You've Got Mail" and the quote by Kathleen Kelly: 

“Once I read a story about a butterfly in the subway, and today, I saw one. It got on at 42nd, and off at 59th, where, I assume it was going to Bloomingdales to buy a hat that will turn out to be a mistake - as almost all hats are.”  

Rainbows, hot chocolate, love, flowers.  I love to go camping and enjoy the outdoors.

 

I love it when I can sit and read a book.  Sometimes I like historical, such as books on the Holocaust.  The will to survive.  Sometimes I like to read fictional Christian books.  Getting lost in a book with a comfy blanket and  a cup of hot chocolate makes my afternoon!  

Music, and peacefulness.  Quieteness. 

My friends bring me much laughter, lots of hugs.  Special moments. Wisdom.  It is love given freely.  No strings attached.  The ones that had strings have officially been sorted and tossed out the door. I love my friends.  We love each other no matter what the other is going through.  We are there for each other to have fun, offer a shoulder to cry on, and just share our lives.  God has blessed me with good close friends.  Few, but just the ones he has put in my life, special for me.

God has truly blessed my life.  I have two beautiful grandchildren.  Three children.  I am so proud of them all.  Justin is a pastor, and has 2 sweet little children.  Eric is just living a "no worries" have fun life in Spokane.  And Ashley is enjoying the life of a girlfriend.  Already thinking of weddings and children and love and all that.  

But really..how happy would I be without God?  I know..I wouldn't even exist without God.  But as Mary Poppins says.."Must you cloud the issue with facts?"  So that is beside the point at this moment.  I know that I would never have survived this world and all that is in it without having God in my life.  He is my strength. He is my life.  He covers me with His wings, and protects me in ways I never even know.  When I hurt I can crawl up in Daddy God's lap and cry.  When I laugh, He laughs too.  He brings the butterflies in my life. He blesses me with the life I have.  He is there for me.  He loves me.  he created me.  He has a plan for me.

Life is often times very hard and can be painful.  

But I find that when we open our eyes, even during the painful times, we can find beauty or something to smile about.  Such as the bird I saw  making its condo on the back of a horses butt.  Or the two little bucks, doe, and fawn that hang out in the pasture across from us.  That blasted gopher that keeps getting the best of our lawn.  The crane on the river with it's funny legs.  The bald eagles and hawks  that are in abundance here.  The baby calves and lambs.  Living in the country brings about many smiles.  The people here are GOOD.  They care about each other.  Everyone knows everyone.  I love being a country girl.  

I love to laugh.  I have friends who say "I have missed your laugh."  Joy comes everyday in our lives.  Sometimes we just have to focus on finding it instead of being consumed with the things that don't bring it. The stress of life can dampen the light that God surrounds us with.  So smile, look up...and know that God loves you!