Old friends and Revenge

Today I am bouncing between the need for revenge and overcoming the grief from the hurt that has been imposed on me.  I am aware that revenge is wrong, and I never would do it.  But can't I just fantasize about it?  I keep saying "if it happens again I will go".  Hmph.  Probably not going to happen.  But I can dream of all kinds of scenerios to make myself feel a little better. My friends can help me with those too. That's what friends are for.  They get you drunk, they tell you how awful you have been treated, then they tell you the honest truth about yourself and your situation.  That part hurts.  So they lighten things up by giving outrageous revenge ideas.  I have moved away from my friends to a different town, but I sure miss that support system.  They were there for me during a divorce and I know they would be there for me during this time too.  How I miss my besties.  They were crazy and fun.  Our little bunch had a lot of good times.  Some fights, but we always made up and had each others back.  Sigh..I will never have that again where I live.  I can't trust anyone here.  Now we have all moved to different towns, different relationships.  Our little bad of bandits broke up.  Oh how I miss those girls.